The week gets worse.....

Loco hasn't really forgiven me for lying and I can see that this will be brought up time and time and time again if he has his way.

Things just feel strained between us and it's horrible :(

Things haven't exactly been going great in my little world recently.

Loco has been causing me some stress. I never realised (you never do), how many insecurities he has and I feel like I am treading on eggshells with him.

He is jealous of ALL of my male friends and some of my female ones too, not too mention my boss, housemates etc.

It gets me down as I don't feel that I can behave normally when we are around other people as he accuses me of flirting, fancying them bla bla..

My friends tell me that this behaviour has to be reigned before it gets out of control.. and I agree.. but how to do it??

Take last night for example, a friend (male) has been visiting for a few days. He's already visited in the past and so knows some of my friends already (some more intimately than others). So we went out for a beer with a couple a people and I tell Loco to come along. He arrives with his best friend. Drinks one beer, sulks therefore making me sulk then pretty much demands that we leave. I decline and give him my keys so I can stay a bit longer as it's my friend's last night in Bcn. I then feel guilty for having stayed and promptly leave.

This isn't normal behaviour and it drives me mad!

So last night was very bad.

Loco has been asking me for sometime about the night we went to the concert.

The Sergio Contreras concert where Worm ended up sleeping naked at my house.

I have for some time been trying to convince Loco that Worm slept on the sofa. Alone. Clothed.

Last night I found out that he in fact knew all along about Worm naked. In my bed.

Yes, his friend had decided to tell him the truth about a month after it happened. I have been lying threw my teeth.

I KNOW - we weren't together, it's none of his business etc etc and I should have just told him BUT I decided to lie. D'oh d'oh d'oh.

And just as it was going so well, we'd had a nice date on Thursday, hung out with his freinds on Friday.. and then this.. cue tears, remorse and guilt.

Result: An even more insecure, jealous boyfriend.

AGHHHH

Guess who had the audacity to text me last night...

Beardman!

What a joker.

3 months of nothing and then a casual text as if nothing has happened..

There's a word for what he thinks I am - Stand by shag

well not this time